Birth Defect

One thing about not knowing ones family, is you know nothing about medical history. I know none of my family's medical history except for my sister who grew up with.

In 2001 after having had much trouble and 2 neck surgeries I find out I have a birth defect in my head called Chiari Malformation, which is fairy rare.

It force me to go on SSD, for it, and other problems in my head and neck causes me much trouble. In fact it has left me in constant pain, which is not welcome at all. But it is something one has to deal with.

But it has left me to where they are many things I should not do, but sometime I will go ahead and do them, them for the next few days I pay for it.

In fact right now I am paying for having done something, for it has left quite a pain in the back of my head, hopefully in a day or 2 it will go away, if not I suppose it will be back to the doctor.

So maybe in a day or 2 I will feel a bit better and get back to what is normal for me and I can think a bit and write something else about my life without mother.

If I had 1 wish, it would be to know what it felt like to get a hug from my mother. Thru no fault of hers I do not know what that would be like.

I am right proud of her, for she gave her life trying to save her child, so I know my mother loved her children with all of her heart, she proved it when she turned to go back into that burning house to get Bobby Dean. How I wish that Betty sue had not run back in after her, but I feel she thought that was the thing to do.

My sister Dixie had me in one arm, Betty Sue's hand in the other, but she broke loose and ran after the mother she loved so much and I feel sure she was scared out of her mind.

I can never imagine the thoughts that went thru Dixie's mind as she stood there holding me, watching the house burn and mother screaming.

I don't know if she was screaming from the fire, or trying to tell those 2 children to run.

What ever it was, I feel that sound never will leave Dixie's mind that she heard that evening.

But thanks to Dixie I was safe from that fire that day and I am very thankful we got to grow up together, so many who go into a orphan home do not.

God has really been good to me. I hope you share your life with God and His Son Jesus.
May God Bless,
Jerry